Whatever it is you have, or don’t have, in your life is your responsibility.
Your life is the way it is because of the choices you made.
Most people would resist what I say in the title of this post: you chose this.
it might be more palatable for me to say: your life is the way it is because of choices you made and failed to make and what did and didn’t do.
If you can’t come ’round to (even) that, then you are doomed to a cycle of outward blaming and waiting for things to change around you so your life can be the way you want it to be, or the way you feel it should be.